Faith

Faith is easier without kids...

"Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life. " Philippians 4:6 (The Message Version)

I have known and experienced the truth of this passage since I was a little girl. Although it has not always been easy to put into practice, it has been a guiding principle in my life.
But now, with Pax, and his bloody stool issue (I have stopped eating dairy and he is still having blood in his stools. The doctor said this may happen but it is still disconcerting.) I find myself not even wanting to hear this truth. Instead I want to shout, "I don't want to take the time to pray and wait and see what God does. I just want him to be better." I just want to know why he is having this problem and fix it. It is hard to practice faith when you want to be the one in control. When you feel like you are the one responsible for the well being of someone else.
But then I listen to myself pray that Pax will grow into a boy and man who loves and trusts God. How will he learn this unless we model this for him?

Despite my ignorant anxiety, God whispers an invitation for me to trust him.

Today we go to the doctor again. And in the midst of my detailed documentation of his stools, my reading of food labels, and my many questions I have ready to ask the doctor, I am trying feebly to trust in the One greater than me.

What is God teaching you about trust?